My Archives: February 2005
Tuesday, February 15, 2005
moosic- "where is my mind?" The Pixies
Happy late Valentine's Day! =D I hope you all had as good as a Valentine's as I did! Although I'm sick and haven't been to school today and yesterday, I had a great v-day. Josh got me a dozen fire and ice roses, a panda that when you squeeze it's his voice saying "I love you", a big hershey kiss, and another smaller panda. Pictures are here. I LOVE YOU JOSH!
You can put all the food I've consumed in two days time in the palm of your hand. I can't eat. It hurts so bad to swallow, little on try to eat something. I can't even drink anything. My damn throat and ears burn and it brings tears to my eyes everytime I swallow. This sucks. Damn sinus infection and ear infection.
I'm going to go lay down and try to take a nap. Much love;Posted by ambie lou @ 11:50 AM EST [Link]
Saturday, February 12, 2005
moosic- "true" Ryan Cabrera
Josh rented The Notebook for us to watch tonight and I have to say that movie is wonderful. I tried not to cry, but hell I couldn't hold it back. If you haven't seen it yet I reccommend you go and rent it..NOW. Ah I'm still teary eyed.
Since 'certain' people read this..I just wanted to say this: I thought I knew what love was. I thought I was in love..but then I started talking to Josh and he just was wonderful, so I did what I always do. I do whatever I wan't to do at that moment. I've hurt many people like that, but thats just how I am. But finally I feel how I should feel. I have never felt this way before, I thought I had, but no..this is real. This is how I've wanted to feel for so long. I'm happy. Yeah it might sound selfish, but thats all I care about. MY happiness. I've been down for so long, I deserve to be happy. I deserve to want the best for me. I make myself miserable at times to please OTHERS..but hell I'm tired of it, so I did something I really wanted to do. To the people who left messages..grow up a bit... you hope I have a horrible life and shit? Do you think that makes you so cool to say that? It makes you look stupid. Honestly. You get hurt in life, the past is the past. No one understands what I've been through the last 2 1/2 years. I've changed, I'm the way I am now due to certain events that has occured. I know my faults, and god I have so many. Even though you said all that shit..I still hope you have a wonderful life, and succeed at everything you do, and I wasn't the one for you, we wern't meant to be, but I promise you will find who you should be with. Everyone expierences heartbreak, but I promise in the end..it will all pay off. I'm sorry I hurt you, I never intended to...but I wanted to be happy, I wanted to do something for myself. But the best of luck to you.
Okay I feel better now..anyways I'm wore out so Im going to bed. Much Love;
Posted by ambie lou @ 12:19 AM EST [Link]
Wednesday, February 9, 2005
moosic- "rich girl" Gwen Stefani
Well I have no school for the rest of this week due to low attendence in my county caused by the flu. I'm happy about that. I love this song by Gwen Stefani..I can't get it out of my head, lol. Life is going great right now, couldn't be better. Hasn't been this great in so long. I'm just always happy and being so nice to everyone...even though I'm p.m.s ing. haha.
I love Josh. I honestly do. I know this is the real thing. I love every single moment I'm with him, I love everything about him. He just makes me so happy and has me laughing all the time. He is so perfect, I couldn't ask for anything more. Today makes three weeks..and it's been the best 3 weeks. I can't wait till he comes up today...
I found my prom dress a few weeks ago and it's in layaway. I think I might possibly be getting it this month...It is absolutly perfect. It's bright yellow with some turquoise and pink beading, strapless, laces up the back and has a poofy bottom =D By the way if you are wondering, yes I am going to the prom with Josh. About 2 weeks ago when I got in his truck he had a yellow rose on his dashboard..and on the card it said "Will you go to prom with me", it was soooo sweet.
I'm going to be updating and working on this site this week since I have no school...but I'm going now to finish my makeup and hair. Much love,Posted by ambie lou @ 03:29 PM EST [Link]
Friday, February 4, 2005
moosic- "opium" Marcy Playground
I'm still SUPER busy but I just missed this site so much. I hate this layout..but hey it shall do. So much has happened so I will prolly leave a lot out..but here it goes..
love life:
I broke up with Jeff Jan.6 so I could go for someone else...which would be Josh. That weekend Josh and I wen't to the movies and ate at reno's. We have wen't out every weekend after that. He works at Food City so I'm out there almost everyday. We started actually dating the 19th of Jan. I really think I'm falling for him. He's different than anyone I've ever dated before, he's a football player. Many people have the wrong idea of him but he's just wonderful. He is so nice, kind, thoughtful, and soooo funny. I'm his goose. lmao. I love spending time with him.
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I have stretched my earlobe to an 8 gauge. Picture is here. I have to go now and finish getting ready, Josh gets off work at 8 and is coming up here..so I shall update whenever I get a chance to. I Love all of you.